It's Still Here.

Okay I have been sick since last Friday and it i now finally trying to go away but it's still here but it's not as bad as it was Thank God. And on the other hand the big fight that I had with my mom has gotten out of hand, and I want it to be over but if she is still going to act like a child then I dont really care. She walks around here doesn't speak or anything doesn't even acknowledge that I am in the same house as her, even the same room. But everything happens for a reason and I know that this is just a test from God and either we will overcome this or it will be this way until I move out. Even if we were to get over this it's still time for me to move out I don't feel that both of us can reside under the same roof and not get into another fight and the next one won't be as nice or good as the first one. And I guess she called herself telling her boyfriend who (well we will leave their dirt to them but can we say not smart) had an attitude towards me this morning so maybe it would be better if I just left the house for them. I don't want to feel like a prisoner in my own house. And I'm tired of not feeling loved by my own parent so maybe if I leave then she will realize what she will be missing.But the tension is still here. But me and Jamar got into an argument because he was over an hour late picking me up from class last night and not becasue he had class or anything but because he needed to play basketball for himself. But we got over that but I still feel like it's still here. That we tried to resolve it but something still isn't right I still feel a little distant to him. He told me that he will always be here and that everything will work out for the best. And he is still here. LOL. But I sent Marc Jacobs over his house until I started to feel better I just didnt have the strength to run after him and keep cleaning up after him when I was dead dog sick, oh yea she hasn't even asked me how was I feeling after I was up all night coughing and throwing up I mean dang can I get some kind of respect but I guess not I'm 19 and she doesnt have to care for me anymore it's not her job. Yea I need to finish my paper before class tonight. So until next time>!&^

JTE Smoochies Darling!!!!!